Long time since i've been on here. I doubt many people use it anymore. But i don't really care. I'm here in my dorm in my bed watching Mary Poppins with my roommate after a long run. Julie Andrews is a beautiful person inside and out. And her voice is incredible. I miss the old days and the musicals and movies i used to watch. Heidi was one i particularly miss.

I'm playing my sax once again. My music reading i think has improved since i stopped. And i'm learning some Pink Floyd on my guitar. I feel like running once again. I'm rather sick of this happy weather strangely, but it has put me in a rather good mood. the only trouble is, you don't want to be in a bad mood in this kind of weather or it makes you feel worse.

i'm getting better at being stronger being by myself, without a guy. it was really hard at first, just making friends and keeping up with school, but now its not so hard. as long as i'm going to class, doing things to empower me and not get too behind or caught up with boys. because you don't need any of that. i don't. shouldn't.

anyhoo. it feels good to type out my feelings at typing speed, so i don't really care much if anyone replies or not. plus its cool to be able to look back at these journal blogs from any computer.

l8ter dudes

Although I have a little over 2 weeks left, i'm starting to feel my summer coming to a close and a great couple of crescendos is needed. i can't be my mother's little pet that she keeps in close proximity and safe. I'm 18 now and i have my own limits, she crossed hers last night by following me at 3 in the morning. i was ready to rip up. it scares me how violent i can get, which is why i took extra precautions to cool down in my car before coming home.                if she thinks for one moment that i care to call or see her again in college, she is gravely mistaken. like i said, my time here is limited so i won't be obedient for long.

So. here are my three great plans:

September 9th: busy day. RENAISSANCE FAIRE IN CASA DE FRUITA, anybody who wants to join me is welcome.

and later that night, the Stargasm rave in san francisco, any interested?  about 20 bucks for each event. i'm saving up for, as long as i stop getting parking tickets in the f***ing free parking zone.

enough rage. i have one accomplishment i'd like to share; my father, little sister and i finally did our little voyage across the Monterey Bay in our sailboat and camped out in it for a night. Monetery is an amazing little town/city that is blessed with the presence of much sealife. the aquarium is an amazing place, and the cuisine around there for non-vegans is top-notch. heh... that's why i got so sick. not used to the white chowder and its hard to pass up. plus the plethora of seafood all arouind. i wasn't aware of how light i really eat until i live with my father for two days.

sorry again for the long entry, but then again, i'm not blogging as often as before.

maybe i will get a myspace. as soon as my camera decides to start working. bah. i'll see you all someday again... this summer was waaay too short. *sob* i miss you all, and gonna miss you even more in two weeks.

For so long this summer i had seen no one besides Sam and the occational trendy yuppies at work ordering the "california fresh". so a couple of days ago i get sick of being such a loner and start calling everyone on my address book on my phone. most kids my age are already getting ready to move into their dorms off in college, some are sticking around, some are already settled w/ a certain someone... and then there's me who doesn't do anything till the middle of next month. sigh..

So at the height of my no friend little depression (which i owe to the fact that i have little technological help ((no internet))    ) suddenly gendler shows up on aim around 12:00 at night., and asks me why the heck am i not at his house at his party. HOooray. friends. so i drive on over and hang out for a couple hours playing video games and talking it up with JUniors! in college. I really forget how old these guys are.  HOwever gendler's on ly  a year older than me. hah.

well that made my night, besides the fact that i missed out visiting my bf for the last time before bandcamp started. i miss him already, and trying to find ways to volunteer my time after work for the late night activities. i know i need to get my own life, but i live here in LG, my friends were mostly in band and a year or two younger than me. They visit me at lunch and tell me of the kick-ass year they're going to have. Sam's so lucky to have such a wonderful year to look forward to as his last one. He's doing everything i wish i had done. AP bio, new band director, leadership with all his awesome friends...

i'M really trying to make the best out of the time that LeBou lets me have, but two days out of seven is really shortchanging my summer. I'm starting to realize that maybe i don't need that much money as i thought i did. So i'm trying to stop being a spendthrift and learn to save what little i have and going to earn for college.

SO THE POINT IS FOR THIS ENTRY, IS IF THERE IS ANYBODY ELSE MOPING AROUND AND WOULD LIKE TO MEET UP WITH ME SOMETIME, PERHAPS IN SANTA CRUZ AND GO SAILING, SEE A MOVIE, HAVE A BLAST ON THE BOARDWALK, GO RUNNING, HIKING OR EVEN CAMPING NEARBY GIVE A HOLLER. CALL ME AT (408) 799-4446

College Staples

1. Frisbee

2. round chair

3. little refrigerator

4. guitar

5. cool smelling de odorant

6. good mountain bike

7. boyfriends ipod with awesome music

8. plenty of money from summer job

9. open pallet for the dining room

10. intent on checking out as many clubs as possible

11. lose your claustrophobia, or else the dorm will kill yah.

12. a box full of things that always make you happy when you feel a bad day coming on

13. patience

14. brain... (this should be higher on the list)

15. laptop... (nice but not required)

16. a CHECKLIST!!!

Currently Listening By the Way By Red Hot Chili Peppers tHIS iS tHE plACE see related

I have bleached blonde hair now.          I'm going to UCSC orientation tomorrow.       i've paid for 2 tickets for illegally parking my car.                i've eaten ice cream 4 times since reading that book.                i'm still afraid of racing downhill on my bike.                  i miss all my friends.                    i am finally on my laptop after a month of no internet.                       i'm going to buy one of those sunken in round chairs you find at Cost Plus World Imports.                    i've convinced myself that it will be crucial for my studying success in college.             i've been swimming only 2wice.               i was in my first wednesday night sailing race.              i know what i want to be.                 i'm listening to some of the most intriguing music right now.

does anyone go on xanga anymore? whether they do, or don't. i miss you all.